I don't want to complain since I really love my partner, is just I need advice, what do you do if you ever feel like this?
I've been with my SO for over 4 years, 2 completely long distance
I am really in love and so is he, we talk everyday and have an "us day" once a week, we visit each other as much as we can, but since we are on different countries it isn't often
We don't have an end date for the distance or our next visit scheduled, however he visited me about a month ago because I was feeling really sad
Lately (the last 4 months) I feel like I can't make this anymore, but at the same time I don't want to end the relationship, is just I feel sad, lonely and hopeless and just not like myself
I am usually chatty and outgoing and creative, but lately all I do is pick fights out of nowhere with my boyfriend, cry, and feel totally unproductive. Sometimes I don't even feel like talking to him or turning my video on.
I am trying new and old hobbies, learning french, exercising, doing a master's and trying to be my best self at my job, but it just helps for a week or two and then I am back in the well
Hope I don't sound crazy, he is the most amazing person I know and we are really working for our LDR to work, but I feel lost lately