Idk even know wtf is happening anymore
I’m not here for any kind word or really any words at all I guess I just want to have someplace to say this. But I’m just out of highschool and have never been able to date. But by god I’ve tried since I was 14 to try to get one but to no avail and my self and all my friends cannot figure out why. I can get incredibly close deeeep into talking stages even getting to the slight physical contact phase but not quite actually dating. I’m not saying I think I’m some crazy attractive guy but I’d say I’m pretty decent looking and personality wise I’d say I’m rocking that really well since pretty much everyone I meet enjoys my company and anyways is trying to hang around me. I’ve always been pretty naturally in shape and I have a lot of outward personality. But everytime I get to that deep talking stage some actually crazy event happens that ruins it all. It’s like the universe is cockblocking me from every girl I talk to. For example this one time recently I was talking to this one girl who had eventually asked out to prom but she was always asking to come over,hang out or binge movies with me which dorm physical contact at times and it all went perfectly well until one day about a week before prom I get a message from her saying she doesn’t want to go anymore then after asking if she wanted to talk abt it in person she told me I sounded too harsh and blocked me?? I have talked to over 30 people throughout highschool and they’re all had stuff like what I stated above happen. I’m not sure if I’m like the only one that this stuff happens to but it’s gotten to the point where I’m so broken, exhausted or feel worthless and then I got a friend over there who’s somewhat similar to me who just simply bullshits around and gets actual dates and relationships like a kid in a free candy shop. It’s made me resentful and angry towards many of these women because they all say they understand when I explain the past to them then they do the exact same thing, a good old copy and paste every damn time. It’s literally as if my luck stat is in the negatives when it comes to this stuff since it will go well then some looney toons event happens that ruins it all. I’ve gotten desperate and gone for people that I personally didn’t find attractive physically and or emotionally. And then when you do find someone that checks all your boxes they only want guys who are dicks and constantly in trouble with the police or whoever. Like damn bro some of them deserve to be alone when they only want that then cry about how it ends because he’s abusive or cheats on her. It used to be they were grateful for a guy who was a gentleman and wanted to genuinely take care of her but now its oh he’s doing to much and that’s an ick or oh I just wanna be railed a bunch by 50 guys then not understand why no one wants to date her. I know this has turned into a rant of sorts but some of the worst guys I’ve seen or met have only become actual terrorists to society because of a woman or women and were actually some of the kindest people you could have met before it all happened I know there’s someone out there but some women need there ego to be shattered way early on in there life to be contributing citizens to society