u/Heavy-Web2439

It has come out recently that my father preformed oral on my 15 year old little sister, I have recently learnt that when I was 12 I made a report to the police about my father doing something to me in the shower. I unfortunately don't have memory of this but I do rember the police interview and being scared of the shower intensely and dhhs not allowing him near me but unfortunately the adults ijnored that and i normalised his behaviour and withdrawed my report. It has come out that my dad has hard drives of me and my sister as kids naked and photo shopped in ways that are inappropriate. A little background of me, I was in and out of foster care all my life and my "dad" in this case was actually a step parent. I didn't grow up with any type of family besides my "dads" family. While I was growing up my dad was physically abusive to me and so was some of the foster cares I lived in. When I was 13 I rebelled hard, I chose to sleep on the street and hung out with the other troubled youths and would runaway from my foster cares. I ended up in juvie at 16 due to my aggressive outburst. I lived in residential care for the rest of my teenage years and loved it there. I have 2 beautiful kids, one 3 year old son and a 9 month old girl. After giving birth to my daughter I exprenced bad post-partum psychosis, I had stages where I believed everyone around me including my husband wanted to sexualy assault my daughter, I am now thinking what I said above is why. How are u ment to move on from finding out the person u wanted in the birth room and walked u down the aisle sold child abuse material of u and ur sister. Possible groomed u into think his behaviour is normal and hurt ur little sister