u/Heavy-Reputation-366

I just can't keep up anymore. Politics are a hellscape, life is a constant grind and I have very little help or support. Its like the longer you are depressed the less people care, even friends I thought uunderstood. I am alone so much. I dont have anyone in my corner and it feels like every relationship is performative. Even the ones I thought were real. No one has time for anyone else. I miss connection. I want my partner to move in, they're the only one who makes me feel real anymore and there's so much keeping us from what we want right now. Im tired. I only feel recharged when they're here and because of work and family situations that's not that often. Tired of holding on by a thread....tired of chasing a carrot on a string.....just tired. I wish some one would just tell me I'm doing OK or do my dishes or something. Anything. This hollow, lonely repetition has left me absolutely drained. Everything from the way of the world, the economic system that enslaved us, cultural attitudes and personal problems and relationships....I'm feeling beat down. And it only seems to get worse. All I ever wanted was to love, be loved and male art. Was that truly too much to ask for?