27F/ SAHM. so i’m 16w pregnant w a 14 month old. my husbands aunt offered to watch our son for a month so i can have some time to myself & regroup. this pregnancy hit me like a bus, not all days are bad but it definitely hasn’t been very enjoyable. my husband joined the army & he’s in basic so it’s just been me solo, his family lives about 4 hours away from me. he unfortunately got hospitalized for a little bit so his graduation has been delayed. thankfully his family has been really involved in helping me.
so far i’ve been home alone for 2 weeks, i’m visiting my son this upcoming weekend but i can’t help but feel like mentally i’m still kinda lost idk. i feel like there’s no improvement. i just don’t really know what to do with myself. this has been the first time i’ve completely been able to switch off mom mode for more than a couple days & i just completely don’t even know who i am anymore or what i like or just anything. i tried working out a little & tried to do my makeup when i get out more but it’s just not doing much for me. oh also i got a haircut & had a spa day. i know i need to feed into myself or whatever & go on walks & shit but honestly i mostly just lay around on tik tok or occasionally clean when i get bored.
i know i’m not the same person as before i had a kid but it just feels like before i used to be this fun, outgoing lively person & now im just a lame mom. sometimes i feel wrong for even trying to raise a kid when i don’t even know who i am.
i’m not really sure what i’m looking for i guess i just wanted to vent but any advice is appreciated.