u/Heavenly_Princesa143

I often get depressed at times. This is do to the fact that I have on and off feelings of being transgender. However what keeps me going is this I am living the life I want. Nothing was given to me by birth. This means the life I choose to live is what I decided. Yes we were all born with a deadname because we cant name ourselves when we're born. However those name served there purpose of family identification. And mine is no more the joy of living everyday with a name I choose is amazing. And being on hrt for almost 2 months is amazing. The reward feels great to live a life I choose. Remember if you get depressed about being trans there could have been a version of you that failed being what you didnt want to be.

So my parents know I am trans. I finally told them why I left in September. And they said they still love me. However that was it no I support you etc. Just I still love you. This means my parents are choosing to love me in there own way. They were homophobic and transphobic keep in mind. However now knowing they have a trans kid. They moved to being neutral. My mother refuses to change her Facebook to my new name for example. And I had a call with her as well. And she told me dont tell Any other family members about this. So she still wants to keep me cage and make my life stay private. Which shows she hasn't me me for me. Just that I am going to be different then her beliefs.

Had a phone call with my parents. They seem to finally be opening up. They are still with there religious belifs about being trans. However there slowly accepting it. What can I use to prove to my mother Jesus does not hate trans people. Yes I also used the petter blind verse on her and she said I was misinterpreting it. My dad also said Jesus had 100 sheep and left 99 to find the 1 sheep that went stray. And he said that to prove you can love conditionally.

Hello guys today is my birthday. Yesterday we tried to celebrate it. By eating cake and going to Dave abd busters. I got very sick by the time we got there. And just asked my friend if we could go back home. They are the 2 best friends I love as well and I will celebrate with them. They made sure the paramedics gendered me right. Some of you wanted to see a picture of the cake here it is. Its the first with my name I wanted. And my friend made sure it was very feminine looking.

This birthday means alot to me this birthday means independence. Freedom of expression and making my voice heard. For almost 6 years of being trans my parents spoke over me. And I had to be in the closet about being a woman. It made me fearful and less empowered. However today I feel strong. I am post legal on everything just waiting for my birth certificate to be mailed.

The birth certificate made me think I successful rewrote history to her-story. I also celebrate post hrt. It feels amazing to have a voice finally heard and recognized. By fact I held on for almost 6 years means to me I am a strong woman.

Today is a reminder of how to feel when I am depressed. That I should remind myself of the things I fought for. And this isnt limted to just me. I founded a space once with almost 15k trans woman.