I live in a supported apartment. Though the program coordinator ignores most of my concerns and is hard to contact. Someone in the building has a key that's not supposed to. They frequently unlock my door during the night. I wake up finding my door unlocked when it was locked the night before. The only thing keeping them out while I'm in the apartment is a security bar on the door.
The program coordinator thinks the security bar is a solution to the problem even though they come in while I'm not in the apartment. I carry all my journals, my computer with me everywhere so they dont have access to them. But I can only do this for so long and the bag is getting heavy.
I'm afraid to tell mental health services about this and other problems I have because they react by increasing my medication which so far has done nothing. The nurse that's supposed to check in on me every week hasnt called in over a week.
The doctor doesnt seem to listen to anything I'm saying and seems to be following a checklist so I dont tell her much because I expect everything I say to be misinterpreted.
Also my diagnosis is probably wrong. I asked a doctor before about why I'm diagnosed with schizophrenia and he just gave me circular reasoning, he said i have schizophrenia because I have schizophrenia. When I pointed out he doesnt seem to know why I was diagnosed he asked me if I wanted to see a different doctor and then i had no access to the system for 3 months and got the current doctor. Most doctors dont seem to know what my actual symptoms are, asking me questions like "do you hear voices" several times even though I've never heard voices. It sounds like they just have a caricature of schizophrenia in their head rather than what i actually experience.