u/Healthy_Bluejay_1336

I live in the United States, and my neighbor is from Mexico studying here. We‘ve interacted a couple of times, and I lowkey have a crush on her; shes gorgeous, smart, and really interesting. She’s also studying something similar to me, so it’s easy to spark conversation.

Before asking her out or shooting my shot, I bought her dessert. However, she has not reciprocated anything (I.e., thank you note or a treat) back — which is usually not the case, as I thought the neighbour etiquette is to return the friendly gesture.

Therefore, do you think this is perhaps an indication that she is not interested? Do you also have any other potential advice on dating woman from Mexico? After searching online, the advice is not to date women from Mexico (lol), but that doesn’t seem right.

I (25m) feel like a caged-zoo animal, undergoing a mentally torturous science experiment in God’s unregulated lab — a roller coaster of emotions; I wake up happy but then am subsequently pulled into this dark, suffocating fog that weakens me mentally. It really sucks, as I have plans to accomplish goals and tasks, but am forced to stay in my lonely apartment either crying or idolizing suicide. As a coping mechanism, I’ve been binge eating and that has led to nothing but immense weight gain.

Socially, or in public at least, I am a my life’s a biopic / film version of Kafta’s metamorphosis. Mental illness likely has a potent scent that subconsciously pushes others away. I have no friends, no family (deceased and remaining don‘t like very much), and childhood was very traumatic.

I feel helpless floating in my thoughts and am losing energy to stay afloat. :(