i tried to kiss my friend and now i feel really bad about it and im very anxious and scared
after an event at school, we went back to a social lounge at my schools residence. she put her head on my shoulder for awhile and at first i didn't do anything but eventually i started reciprocating, by holding her hand rubbing her leg, laying on her etc and eventually we were full on cuddling for like 2hours. this was the first time i'd ever cuddled with a girl and this seemed very random and unexpected and i've never had a gf or anything so this made me really happy. but since it was my first time doing that it also made me pretty happy. at some point during the cuddle, since we seemed comfortable, i tried to kiss her, since the given context made it seem idk , appropiate? she basically said its too soon for that since we had only met a couple days prior. i didn't say anything but i laid back down and it was sort of embarassing. but she didn't seem angry or nothing afterwards and we never brought it up. unfortunately we stopped being friends shortly after and i thought it was because i tried to kiss her, but when she listed all the reasons, she didn't say it was cuz i tried to kiss her, it was because of a bunch of other stuff. not that it's really important to this story, but i feel like all the reasons she didn't want to be my friend anymore we're really insignificant and not really a big deal, but point is, she didn't want to stop being friends with me because i tried to kiss her.
is this like, a seriously messed up thing to do? and now im just scared i assaulted or harassed, or anything of the sort. am i over thinking? i have anxiety and ocd , especially because my ocd theme is s usually "what if i assaulted someone" and didn't realizeand tend to make mountains out of molehills and this isn't helping