But I am lying to myself.
I loved and still love you with everything in me
I miss you everyday
We tried to keep it going after getting caught
We tried to defy all the logic
We almost created a little life together.. I still look at the picture and cry because a baby with you was a dream
We met on Reddit for fun and built something magical
1 week of NC has been brutal and gets harder everyday
I know I messaged you and said I wish I never met you and I was disgusted with you and the lies throughout our relationship. You throwing me under the bus.
It was all out of anger. I am hurt and lost. I don’t know where to go from here.
I wish I could talk to you and tell you about my day, how much I miss us and that
I am glad that I met you. I learned so much about myself and how I deserve to be happy.
Sometimes I wonder if our 8months was real? Because it was for me..
I am forever grateful for you my babygirl
Take care of yourself and I hope you heal and help your kids heal
Until we meet again