Hi
Hi so I’m 20 (female) and have dated a handful of men and feel sick and nauseous after any type of physical affection with them, the last guy I was seeing I’d end up crying and having a panic attack over nothing, to this day idk why I kept breaking down he did nothing wrong. Anyways, I’ve liked this girl since we were around 11, but she’s the only girl I’ve ever liked, idk what I’m experiencing . I’ve only ever really loved one guy and then her, everyone else I’ve ever been with I always ended it because I just couldn’t find the attractive I guess? It’s like I can’t find anyone attractive most of the time. Is there a term for this? Like I’ve never labeled myself as anything because I truly don’t know, I feel like mike wheeler. If anyone knows what tf is going on with me or if you’ve experienced something similar pls lmk. My mind is spiraling. Also I never “look” for someone I guess is the word for it, if a guy approaches me in public I turn it down, and a girl has never approached me so idk what I would do? Idk I’m confused. Maybe I’m being dramatic but it’s been eating at my mind for the past year, I haven’t told any of my friends or family so I guess I just needed to vent