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I’m sorry for the reoccurring posts. I have been dealing with a massive amount of insecurities about my appearance for a long time now. I am someone who was noticeably masculinized by testosterone due to starting it at such a young age. I am afraid there is no hope of “fixing“ my face and that has been very crushing for me. I have recently realized that I am not only completely straight but I am also working on my faith. it feels like a ton of bricks has landed on top of me with fully realizing the consequences of the decisions I made in the past when I was far too young to be making them. I am terrified that I am going to look like this weird inbetween sort of female for the rest of my life, trapped in a shell that doesn’t reflect who I am or how I want to be perceived in the slightest. I look totally wrong and feel misunderstood by others often. I just feel hopeless is all.

I was using testosterone from the time I was 15 and a half to 21 years old. unfortunately because of my age at the time, my face really did masculinize and I frequently get “misgendered” if I’m not carful about speaking at a higher register. while the voice is obviously causing the issues, I’m afraid my overall appearance and facial features may be throwing people off as well. besides doing more with my hair, makeup and personal style, I’m afraid there isnt much I can do with being perceived as my sex. eventually I do plan on getting some work done on my face just to feel a bit more normal, like getting my brow ridge shaved down, a nose job and maybe something to do with soft tissue. I just want to feel desirable for a straight man as a straight woman.

I’m sorry

Do I “pass” as a woman?