I need to leave, my new life awaits. Why haven’t I pulled the plug yet?
I was in the contemplation phase for 1 1/2 years. I tried to make friends that he doesn’t know but it hasn’t really worked out. So I got a therapist. She’s helped me immensely even though I haven’t labelled anything about my husband. I started therapy 6 months ago.
5 weeks ago, he said something that completely triggered me and for the first time ever I yelled saying get the hell out of this house. I think he was shocked. I was too but in that moment, my nervous system completely relaxed in a way that I haven’t felt in 25 years. He packed his bags. Then proceeded to have a meltdown/tantrum and unpacked and stayed.
I’m at a loss. I know he will make ending this so damn hard.
I’m just tired. First enduring this abuse for decades, and now having to fix a life he made crap for me and our kid. I know I have to do it. But dammit I’m exhausted and excited all at the same time.
I’ve had one paid legal consult last year. Don’t think I asked the right questions. Do I get another? Get a storage unit? Rent a place? Where. Do. I. Start.?
Any and all advice is welcome.