Nakakahiya aminin pero sobrang lonely and lungkot ko na
Lalaki ako and I feel like society treats us like we are not humans and should not have emotions like loneliness and sadness and worries etc. I used to have friends and had long term relationships before. Ngayon, parang creepy or weird old dude na lang ako na iniiwasan ng mga tao. While women are complaining about asshole men on the internet, they wouldnt even give time to get to know me. Kahit platonic friendships wala. People my age are all busy with their family and lives na while I'm just existing and being treated like im no longer relevant in this world. I feel like I should have died during covid when I got sick. After pandemic, my life just crumbled down. Kung ano ako dati lahat nawala and di na ako makaaahon kahit pinipilit ko.I think of dying all the time but di deserve ng parents ko that kind of pain. I dont think na suicidal ako, it's just that i dont see a good life ahead. And there was a glitch in the matrix or something. That I should have died.