u/Haunting_Cucumber638

So basically, I am the eldest daughter. My brother has a girlfriend and my sisters have boyfriends. For some reason I’m not allowed to have one. My parents go through packages whenever I buy something and send it back if they deem it inappropriate for me to have. The look through my phones history and my spending history and shame me after. I will be going off to college this next fall but until then, I’m stuck at home. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m constantly gaslighted and shamed under the mask of “caring for me”. I’m broken and can’t escape. I’ve tried having them talk with me and a therapist but they refuse to change. What do I do? I feel so hopeless and alone.