Some people in my school (total ableist bullies btw so idc much) said to one another about me (looking at me and im the only person they call “it” in our class) “ew, it’s faking Tourettes”. and like. i don’t even have tics, im just itching my nose and occasionally shivering cuz the window is open and it’s cold af, bro, doesn’t even look like im endeavouring to fake anything. 😔
I’m luckily good at maths but I’ll get the same thing wrong repeatedly abd the videos don’t change nod to the tips so you have no clue what is wrong and if I don’t get it all right eventually then I get detention
For context i just recently started actually researching and fin out what being plural is. I‘ve heard of it for a while now through fake claiming and seeing syscorse (is this the right spelling??) however, I never really checked what it actually is.
As I have researched I found a LOT of it relatable (like, most of it) especially seeing how what I say I am (genderfluid, pronounfluid, namefluid, abrosexual, a-spec flux, ect) and am considering that perhaps I am (or potential we are, idk, not used to that, not using it yet) plural.
I have been inclined to support/not hate endo-systems as i didn’t consider myself plural (so considered myself singlet, is that the right term/grammar for it, idk, im sorry) and they get a LOT of rude treatment so I have no right to add to said bad treatment So it’s not like im afraid that im “faking being plural”. and anyway i could be a trauma-system because my parents are not the best.
My thing is, I’m very scared to be in a closet to everyone again (that was a very stressful time for me where my mental health was incredibly low) or come out as that considering how much hate non-DID/non-trauma/undiagnosed systems are, I really dont wanna risk losing my only friend.
Anything on how to be more sure/maybe a full definition of what it’s like to be plural/signs to finish questioning or any advice on what I should do is very appreciated.