u/HatsuneMal

ive been clean off drugs (including ODs, xanax, nicotine, etc) for a bit more than a week now and it sucks

im pretty sure we have xanax in the house, i heard my mom got it refilled

i wanna take it, just one pill, i havent felt it in forever. ive been doing overdoses just to feel evem a little high

but i know my gf wont let me, she wants me clean. if i take even one pill she won't talk to me, and she's already been feeling so shitty these days

and i know it's for my own good but i cant help but feel upset because its been so long and i just wanna get high again. i know its wrong to feel this way, i know its bad. just wanted to vent