Struggling to find a therapist
I've been in therapy pretty steadily over the last 10 years. I was recently terminated by a therapist of 1.5 years, and I'm struggling to find a good fit. I'm autistic btw. The last six months have been quite difficult, like a rough patch punctuated with losing an important relationship and some depression/burnout.
Yeah my prevoius therapist terminated me, and it was kind of a tricky somewhat messy situation. Since then I've been meeting with a lot of new therapists. Sometimes just a consult, but I've seen a number of them for a few sessions, but nothing has felt quite right i guess.
Most recently I had a rupture in my second sessions with someone i was cautiously hpeful about? SHe made a comment that didn't land. I was describing my difficulty with the social dynamic at work (autistic), and she commented that the only thing i could control was myself, and asked me how I want to be at work, and it felt like she was pushing me toward pragmatic masking. We talked through it a bit but i just feel very over it. Idk. It just happened very quickly, and i feel like im particularly sensitive to these things right now.
I just feel very burnt out over continuing to search through new therapists when its already felt like everything else has also been going wrong. I'm debating whether to continue with this one, keep searching, or just take a long break from therapy altogether.