u/Haseen_Dillruba

I am the daughter of a single parent. My dad is getting older and with that his health issues have been increasing. As the older child of the house, a lot of the pressure falls on me. I am not sure how long I can sustain this for.

Between work stress and personal life stress, I can feel myself stretching pretty thin. Days like these are when I miss my mother a lot. A maternal figure to just hug me and let me be.

A little more context, my dad is currently going thru some health issues which we are unable to identify the root of. It appears neurological but the tests all look "normal".

I am stuck at my current job because it gives me a lot of freedom to be home and available in case any emergency arises (touchwood) (horrible trade-off) but want to move to a bigger and better opportunity. But every time I see my father struggle, alone, I feel like I need to shut up and stay put.

My sibling is quite young and just about to start their college/educational life and it would be super unfair to ask them to put that on hold.

I just want a physical outlet, a vacation, SOMETHING, to help me deal with this mess. There is actually a lot more weird/intense shit that's been going on simultaneously which I don't want to write here, LOL.

What do I do?????? I am so exhausted.

Women of this generation fill my heart with so much hope, joy, and love.

On days when you feel so lost and hopeless and just need a gal-pal to hold you, they understand, hold you, validate you, and curse with you. That is so, so, so healing.

There is something incredibly comforting about being seen by other women without having to overexplain yourself. They rage with you but also are so "soft" and caring?

You feel so safe, there is no fear of being judged, hurt, abused or exploited. Its just about the vibes and showing up for each other.

Sometimes, I really love being a woman.