AIW for refusing to wash my brother tray?
So context my mom is quite strict if I don't listen to her even if it's something little she would ban me from so much stuff, so around 3 years ago I made the decision of avoiding conflict and arguments with her, yet yesterday I don't know why, I thought it's wouldn't result tosuch a big conflict, I decided to protest how I don't want to wash my brother tray since if he would just eat with us in the same dining table there would be no such tray I need to wash, but she got mad said she would ban me from lunch, and things just escalated, I apologised couple of times even though I was the one who was physically and verbally hurt, but she said I didn't change I am the same like how I was years ago the same bad daughter that cares about herself the most (I mean is it wrong to care about myself the most? ) she also said I took it to far with what I said and I was confused cause what did I say to her that was too far, I didn't cuss her or anything but me talking back to her, establishing my disagreements in such situation and wanting alterative chores that I could do was that too far? I mean I was disrespectful talking to my mom but I feel like she was the one who escalated the situation or is it fine cause she is the mom? Anyways currently she is ignoring me, and she said she wouldn't forgive me unless I wrote a million sorry, how is that reasonable, and the math addict in me was like let me count how many hours it would take me to write a million sorry, it was around 1111 hours, and if I only spent an hour a day writing, it would talk me 3 years, and why should I waste this much time on apologising I feel this is beyond reasonable, its like she is saying I don't want to forgive you. Idk what to do iprayed to god to help me cause I am quite a sensitive person and the whole environment/situation makes me feel so gloomy.