I'm in a better headspace now but I find it disappointing how easily I broke being clean after restraining myself these past months.
I was hoping to celebrate 6 months being clean on my birthday next month.
I feel its so stupid because I succumbed because of a relationship I had. Even though I understand that its because I was so desperate and couldn't think at all during the moments. Only until doing it.. and then remembering I have to shower so gg on me 😔
I know its not easy and the road to recovery is slow! Thats all since I dont like sharing with people I know because I feel shame and disgust. And afraid how they'll view me. Since a friend told me encouraging things a while back and how they cant wait to celebrate the victory of 6 months clean with me :( , I will probably still celebrate even though I know its not truly 6 months anymore
Thanks