u/GreatPumpkin72

I have my second CPAP machine. I've actually had it about two years. And I have never used it once.

Now, let me explain: I had a CPAP machine a few years ago. Genuinely tried to use it, and the nasal pillows just gave me terrible pain in my sinuses. Horrific. I did everything right as far as cleaning and fit and everything, but it just left me in so much pain. So, I stopped.

A couple of years ago, at the urging of my girlfriend, I got another sleep study. Severe. I knew that. Got another machine. Got a machine to clean the machine.

And both sit by my bed to this day because I just cannot.

Last time, I used the machine for a couple of months and was completely miserable. I hated the way it felt on my face. I hated the way it made me feel. I could tell I was sleeping more and had a bit more energy, but the side effects just stymied me.

I don't know if I need a full face mask or what. I have a goatee I keep fairly trim, but I know the nasal pillows would likely be the best option because the less stuff on my face the better.

I realize I'm whining, and how can I whine without even trying? But every time I think about going and buying some distilled water and breaking open a set of the masks and materials (I'm still stupid enough to be paying for new hoses and masks even though I'm not using them), I just ... can't.

I would rather have surgery than even contemplate using this thing, but I think my BMI is still too high. Those mouthpiece things strike me as nothing but scams.

Help?