I’ve come to the realisation that I’ve got a sex addiction. Like lots of other folk, it started with chronic porn addiction.
Over the last few years it’s developed into sex addiction and me seeking out casual encounters — usually anonymous no strings hook ups.
But it’s insatiable, and after every encounter, I’m rarely interested in the same person and it just feels like a tick box where I want to move on to the next person immediately.
My preference is women, but I like trans women too. However, because it’s significantly easier to meet guys through gay dating apps than it is with women on regular dating apps… I more often than not meet crossdressers/transvestites.
Sometimes when it’s hard to find someone, I’ll find myself browsing escort sites and I’ve dabbled once or twice but it’s really not something I want to get into a habit of. It seems to be something I consider only when I’m going through a drought (I simply can’t afford paying for it so thankfully that helps).
My deepest concern is that I don’t feel like I can ever start a relationship because the desire for a new partner, I worry, will result in cheating. I’ve had some short dating experiences in the last few years but I get bored pretty quickly. I’ve not been exclusive with anyone, and that’s always because I just want to have a sleazy hookup with someone I barely know.
But then I feel lonely because I can’t build a relationship with someone.
wtf am I meant to do?