u/GovernmentNew256

DISCLAIMER: I HAVE DIAGNOSED OCD (DIAGNOSED by psychiatrist for the past 15 years) - I'm not asking if I have OCD because of this, I'm asking if other people with OCD also experience this "obsession".

I have OCD (not about cleanliness or organising - mine is worst, a mind that makes me believe I do horrible stuff that I did not do, or tries to convince me I will lose control and do horrible stuff - just to clarify.)

But I have this thing - and it's gross and unpleasant, but try to bare with me - where my I don't have a string enough peristaltic force to expell 100% of feces from my rectum. So I have this thing where I absolutely must do an anal douching every time I need to poop or just pooped just to make sure that there is not any fecal residue inside my rectum. If there still is some remaining, I don't know how but I can **feel it** and it drives me crazy and I literally cannot go about my day or sleep if I know that there is still feces there.

DO people with OCD also experience this behaviour?

I have a 3 month old baby daughter that I love to pieces. I'm obsessed with her and I love the fact that she's a baby. I have always adored babies, since forever, I just adore holding her, her toothless smile, the chubby cheeks, chubby arms and legs, I adore everything about her as a baby. I break my own heart when I realise she won't be a baby for long. I never was much a fan of older children, they just seem more boring to me, and I honestly really dislike teenagers. I'm afraid I just won't feel the same when she's not a baby anymore. Please someone tell me it's going to be different since she's MY daughter and I'll love her at any stages. I'm really struggling with the perspective of her not being a baby anymore someday. I'm so attached to this baby stage. I wish this could last forever.