What does intimacy feel like for you after coming from a neglectful background?
Hello,
Just curious. I feel deeply ashamed when people are nice to me or appear to like me. I want to disappear and go and hide in a shell. It's extremely embarrassing. I don't understand it really. This is not relating to anything romantic but more friendship or even familial relationships. I want to die inside. It feels exposing and extremely cringy.
Does anyone else feel like this? If not, how does it feel for you to be liked by- or get close to others after being emotionally neglected by a parent? And do you still go through with it anyway or do you run from it?
I'm personally not angry at my parent. It's worse - I felt too much empathy for their suffering to the point where I'd cry for them. They have since passed and I can't stop thinking about how much they suffered. It's like their pain took over me.
Any insights would help!