Is it appropriate to give a cashier my number?
Let's jump right in! I, 18F have a crush on a cashier ??M at my local grocery store. He is the sweetest thing in the whole world. Not only is he super kind, but hes charismatic and genuine. I had an interaction with him for the first time a few months ago where he complimented me about something, and I remember being giddy walking back to my car.
Now, I haven't been to that store in a while because I normally don't have a reason to go at that time. Im usually there at that time because im coming home from my college classes, but there are so many other grocery stores around campus that if I ever do need anything I just go somewhere else. Until last week. I go, and there he is! Now at first I didnt recognize him until I heard his voice and noticed his jeans. I remember him wearing a really cool pair of jeans last time I saw him those months ago. And guys he is so sweetsie. Ive been in there I think 3 times, each time he gives me a compliment on something specific. Think the color of my nails or how I have my hair styled. And just watching him interact with other people is so great because he genuinely treats people so kindly. Like I know its his job to be nice, but it definitely is just naturally him. He has so much charisma, such a naturally charming guy.
Ive really wanted to give him my number, to the point where I had written a note in a pink glitter gel pen that I put in my purse to give to him the next time I saw him. I missed my opportunity to do that twice, the note is sitting on my bathroom counter as I type. Thing is, im a very, seriously anxious gal. Most of the time I dont even look at him. I kinda worry I come off as rude, because normally I am very confident presenting. Head held high, bomb outfits, hair and makeup done, blah blah. But I am not good at talking to people. Everytime outside of the last tike i saw him when hes tried to make conversation, all i can get out is an mhmm or thank you or have a good day or how are you? I never really grew up with friends or anything, so I feel like I missed out on learning how to socialize with others. I can do small talk with strangers, not really people my age though. And I especially cannot do small talk with guys I like. And I haven't liked a guy in like, 3 years? Which means my last romantic interaction was also 3 years ago. I dont think Ive ever hung out with anyone outside of school, or on school for that matter.
So, we did actually have a conversation last time i saw him though! It was great and we were giggling and I was able to look at him, and boy did that leave me with the cheesiest smile on my face. Anyway, that being said, I do know I am an attractive girl. But types are relative. And I worry I am not his type? I feel like I am attractive sure, but may be niche? I do get approached often, so maybe thats a good sign? Idk. I feel like my specific look or genre is popular in certain communities yk? And I always kinda bite myself because im like, would anyone really want me on their arm? Like sure, i know I'm pretty. But I also have my flaws. And I wonder if anyone would ever want to be with me publicly because of those flaws, despite the fact that I am pretty, yk? Does anyone catch my drift?
I have class in a few hours. Should I just swallow whatever horrible terrible anxiety I have and slide him the note? How do I even do that in a natural way? And is that even an appropriate thing to do? Ive been battling that. Because I feel like since hes on the clock, I'm not giving him an opportunity to really say no, and thats not right. I keep thinking about how i would feel if roles were reversed and some guy slid me his number. I guess he can always just not text me, but even the thought of making him a little uncomfortable makes me feel terrible. And what if he doenst like me and he really is just charismatic and the best guy in the whole world? I feel like ill be crushed if I take that super scary leap and its a rejection. And its my local store! When im home and I need something quick, that's where I go. And noooo way will I be going back if I get rejected by a cashier. Idk. What do you guys think? Do you think he likes me? Do you think I should go for it? Is it appropriate for me to even give him my number? Help, guys!