I fell in love for the first time. And I am going crazy, because we're not in a relationship. Help?
I F23 feel like going insane with my feelings for M29. We first met through someone we both know in late January, and haven't stopped talking since. We talk every day, we go on dates very regularly, we just came back from a 10-day holiday we spent together, just him and I. Dunno if that's an important detail, but he paid for everything, covering every expense of the trip.
It was a wonderful trip, I have never felt so consistently happy for a relatively long period of time with someone else in my life. I used to go on vacations with my friends and they started to piss me off 4-5 days in. Him and I had so much fun, he's naturally very funny and an intellectual which are two of my most desirable qualities in a person. We have so many little things in common, we even think similarly sometimes. I think we hit off very well. I've never felt as safe as I do feel around him.
Once I came back to my house, all I've been thinking about is him. His smile, his personality, his kisses. Mind you, he's my first ever guy so I might be extra impressionable than people normally are at my age. All I feel is immense anxiety that makes my body tremble because I'm not sure where to go from this.
I haven't yet seen him after the trip. The issue I have with him is unspoken: we do not have a status attached to our relationship. Whenever I try to bring it up even remotely, he switches the topic or pretends I never mentioned anything. It used not to bother me much, and it honestly doesn't whenever I am with him, but it's been driving me crazy when I'm alone.
I don't want to be annoying or hurt him in any way, however, should I finally initiate a big talk about our relationship status? I think I am in love with him (I am quite literally going crazy), and I see us being a couple in the future, but how do I know that feeling is reciprocated? I really don't want to lose him.