(tw: suicidal ideation/self harm thoughts) is this caused by zoloft or am i insane
i self admitted to the psych ward on may 8th, self discharged may 10th, and during that time they prescribed me zoloft, 50mg, which i took one pill a day for two days. I didn't have my medication for two days because the doctors were very unclear about where the hell it was going to be sent. I picked it up yesterday, started again today, and had uncontrollable anxiety, brain fog, increased suicidal thoughts and thoughts of self harm, and physical trembling.
I was fine this morning before I took the zoloft pill, and i was actually feeling pretty decent yesterday and finally recovering from my previous symptoms after having horrible insomnia and poor mood.
my initial experience with zoloft was complete lack of appetite (could barely eat anything, food in the ward wasn't even that bad) and emotional numbness/lack of feeling. which, in the state of mind I was, helped a lot to not feel so intensley -- that was the effect I was hoping to get now that I'm back in society and have responsibilities. what's freaking me out is how different my symptoms are now and I've only had a single pill. does this even have anything to do with the medication at all?
I don't want to discontinue it completely because I want to be medicated so damn badly, but my doctor said that we have to immediately discontinue it and try to take none for 3-5 days to see if the side effects I'm experiencing were caused by zoloft.