u/Good-Target9809

when I was younger I had some straightforward euphoric manic and hypomanic episodes and also pretty “typical” low energy depression. now I seem to get neither. I get “depressed” but I’m also keyed up, irritable, make terrible impulse decisions, don’t sleep. no appetite where I used to have increased appetite while depressed. has anyone else experienced this progression of illness?

I constantly have the urge to just leave my home, my city, my state etc and just go. the thought of staying where I am is so uncomfortable. I’m not sure why