So I’m 18 and I have ADHD.
Four months ago something shifted completely. I accidentally discovered what I actually want from this life, something I’d never felt before. I won’t go into full detail but it involves living near wild orcas, spending my days on a boat near them. I know how that sounds. But this isn’t a phase, it’s been 4 months and it’s only getting stronger, not fading.
The problem is everything else is falling apart around it. I used to love my job. Now I can’t stand it. I used to have goals around money, success, status. Now I only see money as a tool to buy a boat and freedom. I’ve isolated myself completely, no social media, no real friends, just me and this obsession.
Here’s what scares me: I feel like I’m capable of achieving this. I genuinely believe I can get there. But I’m doing almost nothing to move toward it. The gap between what I want and where I am is so painful that I don’t know how to fight myself anymore.
I want to learn how to actually manage my ADHD instead of letting it manage me. I've never taken any ADHD medication but I don't know, it just hard for me to trust it.