I know every form of being trans is valid, but I just need some reassurance and maybe some opinions from folks who have been through the same thing.
I’m 31 years old! So the changes I wanted when transitioning were body/facial hair, deeper voice, and to socially fit in as a man. as I’ve gotten further along in my transition (7.5yrs), I’ve started to really miss the more traditionally feminine aspects of my body (bigger hips, slimmer waist). I’ve toyed with the idea of going off of T as a trial run for a few years now, so this isnt a spur of the moment decision.
I’m not turned away by the idea of having my cycle come back, I’ve actually had it twice in recent times bc I changed from IM to subq and it caused it to come back. I didn’t have the dysphoria I thought I would, though I didn’t miss the cramping. I’d just get on birth control again, which I would do anyway as I am sexually active.
My main fears are that going off of T would change my face drastically. I know it’ll slow down my facial hair growth, but I have a full beard and would probably just chose a length and keep it there and continue using minoxidil to prevent any thinning if possible. My body hair is extremely blond so if I lose any of it, it won’t be majorly noticeable to me. I’ve had top surgery so I know my chest won’t cone back or anything and estrogen did make some fat settle there, I wouldn’t majorly mind I suppose, but we’ll see.
So my question: has anyone else done this And stayed identifying as the gender they transitioned to and did it affect their passibility? I am not majorly worried about passing as I don’t really care but I do live in a Deep South state.
Like, if I do this, I imagine I’ll have to deal with hormonal mood swings for a bit. Any Insight on that?
Really just if anyone can give me any advice, even from my respectful detransitioner friends, that would be great! Like, can yall still pass as the gender you had detransitioned from if you wanted to? (I hope that question isn’t evil and I am so sorry if it is)
Thanks, everyone! I’m so proud to be trans and to know that it is always an evolving experience! It just is nerve wracking doing something outside of the usual timeline!