What do I do when he is threatening me with his life when I try to leave
I’m not a psychologist so I can’t diagnose if my bf has BPD or not. Sorry if me thinking that he has BPD is offensive to anyone. But after reading this sub and reading other stuff I’m nearly sure that something is wrong with him. We have been in a relationship for 8 years. I’ve been trying to leave him for so long. I’ve been abused in all kinds of ways. I’m at a point where I am barely living. It hurts so bad. I just want to breathe freely. The way he gets triggered over minor things. The way he lashes out at me. The extreme verbal abuse and the change as if nothing happened, everything hurts. And when he gets drunk, he is so scary. These day meeting him makes my body feel sick. I get tensed all the time. My hands shake, heart rate increases and I feel uneasy. I stayed thinking things would get better. But as each day passes by it’s only getting worse. Please help me. I don’t have any friends. He isolated me from people that would help me. But when I’m trying to leave he is threatening me. I have become a hollow shell of a person. And he is fine with that. He wants me even if I’m not my old bubbly self. I’m just so tired of everything.