u/GoldenSausage111

after living out my whole life so far as a male ive suddenly become much more aware that its not what i want to be. ive had previous thoughts about it, increasing more and more until eventually over the past few months it's kind of been one of the main things i think about all the time. ive suddenly begun being much more conscious of my physical appearance, shaving my face as well as my arms and legs completely for the first time, and started going on runs. i know there are some people in my life who could support me, as i have a trans brother and he has said that our mom "is cool with it i guess", as well as all of my online friends(some of which might have already assumed i am a woman, cis or not, which i obviously havent "corrected" them on) i can never imagine my dad as ever being supportive of something like this, since he was very much not supportive to my brother's coming out. ive never been very real-life social, particularly since the end of covid, but it's recently become less of a social anxiety thing and more about me not wanting people in my life who would remember me how i am right now. i havent told anybody about my feelings yet, but have thought about dropping small hints to people who i know would be supportive(brother) im scared about where this goes and what i'll have to do to be "accepted". im lucky enough to be naturally pretty skinny and have neutral enough features to be probably recognizable as feminine if the rest of my body went along, but i'm worried about my height and shoulder width. i dont know what to do at this point, or where im supposed to start really, and im just scared about what to do from where i am