I want to give up
I am a first year engineering student who commutes to school. It is about an hour long commute, if not more with traffic. It’s finals season and I cannot help but to feel like a failure. I don’t know what to do anymore and I don’t know where to start.
I have this project that’s supposed to be a group project but has turned into a solo project. It relies solely on Arduino and 3d modeling and it’s due this week. We have had about 3 weeks to work on it. They did not teach us how to model anything or code or how to use the Arduino prior to this so we were expected to learn ourselves. I am in a group with a bunch of early college students who don’t help or say they will then when I ask them how what they are working on is coming along, they either come up with an excuse or just don’t answer. We have to make a video on it and they’re expecting me to also write the script.
Since I’ve taken on this project by myself, I haven’t been able to study for my physics lab final that’s tomorrow, my Module 5 exam for Foundational Physics for Engineering that’s on Thursday, finish any assignments that are due for the week, study for my Module 4 Calculus II test (which is on series, I don’t understand them and my grade is riding on this), or study for any other final (including my Calculus II and Physics I finals that are next Friday).
The video is due tomorrow but I also have another project due tomorrow that I have to do as a part of another class with another group that nobody started on until today. I don’t have time to do anything because my on campus job upped my hours to where I am working 4 days during the week until 9:35 every night. I start work maybe an hour or two after class ends and I am not allowed to do schoolwork on the clock. I don’t have time to shower, I can’t wash clothes and have clean clothes to wear, I don’t even have time to eat dinner. I don’t know what to do anymore and it’s making me really depressed and making me feel really down about myself. It’s too much for me and I can’t keep doing this. It’s stressing me out so bad that my hormones are all out of wack and I literally cannot eat full meals anymore, I can’t sleep, or be happy. I know it’s only temporary but I am scared of failing these classes because of a project nobody else will help with.