u/Glittering_Ad2771

I know many of you have probably watched it for input. I find myself I kind of enjoy it for deeper reasons and I know that's odd for a 36 year old to say lol. Spanish has become the perfect excuse to watch stuff like this judgement free ha.

I like the vivid colours, the simplicity and the relaxed vibe of it. The world is so small, all the characters are friendly and I like the way the sun just sits in that perfectly blue sky. The show just has a habit of zooming in on everyday activities and promotes joy in the simpler things in life. I guess as an adult we kind of miss when the world genuinely felt like kids shows portray it.

Anyway I'm well over a 1000+ hours now. I wonder what point I can no longer just call it "learning" lol.

I know I'm a sad cantankerous old fart at this point but I just want to rant. Every time you look at any music video on YouTube over 5 years there's probably a 9/10 chance you'll see the comment "who's watching in 20(whatever year it is)?" or something along the lines. Seriously for like 10 years it's been a thing and every time I see it it's such a pet peeve of mine. It's like "why?" It's such a lazy, vapid, transparent low effort high reward comment. Are people genuinely surprised that people still watch old music videos? It's such an NPC follow the crowd comment.

Yes I probably need a life. But if you look you will always see it now and you'll know what I mean.

Obviously it's different for everyone and I guess it depends on your own personal standards. For me there's speaking and speaking well which Is why I find it weird when people get to 1500 hours and say they can't speak. If you were expecting it to just magically happen then can you really blame the method? Any way that's not what this post is about.

What point would you say can speak Spanish? Me personally I would say I can. Probably with a tone of errors but I'm not just sitting in silence on my weekly Italki lesson. We are talking, we are communicating. It probably depends how far you wanna go and I think you have to let go if you're expecting perfection at level 7. I think I'm gonna be forever refining this.

When I can put on my CV/resume that I can speak Spanish I think will be the big defining moment.

I've given up with deliveroo. Ever since the easter holidays there has been a steep drop off in orders. I mean until now I'd at least log on when grabbing lunch to see if anything pops up but I've had nothing. Lately I won't even do that and I've just considered deliveroo a closed avenue for now. I feel especially justified in this when I bumped into another rider who's normally positive about the experience. He was telling me how bullshit it was. He even showed me what he'd earned. He'd been on 4 hours and only had like 3 deliveries! What has happened?

Is it normal to just constantly feel like something bad is going to happen? I worry so fricking much lately and it's getting exhausting. I've always been told I worry too much but now I've been off work a while it has ramped up big time. If my cat doesn't finish her meal I worry, If my dad doesn't seem as witty as usual I worry, I worry that I game too much, I worry if I'm using my time wisely. I've always been prone too anxiety and sometimes panic attacks. I'd worry that I was in deaths door at like 21, yet whilst it's pushed me to be healthier mentally its taxing.

I'm not a risk taker at all, if I go past a speed camera and I'm not completely certain I didn't tick over the speed limit that's a restless couple of weeks. I also worry about parking tickets. I just have such a hard time dealing with uncertainty I guess.

Apparently that's why I always found marijuana a bit much for me whether I tried it in the past. Because by default I'm a paranoid person so with the influence of weed it's absolutely amped up to full.

Can anyone relate?