u/Glittering-Pipe-7101

My boyfriend (M19) of 240 days like 8 months broke up with me (M18) less than a week ago

Yesterday he told me he found a date

Its a guy he told me about when we were together not so long ago

And he told me that he is currently sleeping in his bed

And im just devastated i cried badly

Talked to him told him how i feel

And he said its normal for me to feel that way

We kinda wanna stay friends

I still love him tho...

He is also helping me financially so i dont wanna cut him off (idk if thats selfish)

I took a break

But i come back 4 hours later saying "im all fine i cried and i came to the conclusion that i dont care cuz its not my business"

And he said its unhealthy for me to be like that

I said nah but it definitely is

Cuz later that night after i told him goodnight

I just sat on my bed unable to sleep

My mind thinking about him

Thinking that he isnt mine anymore

We aren't together anymore

We aren't in love anymore

Im not his anymore, im not his special person anymore

And i kept thinking that they probably fucked

On the first date...

Im just fucking devastated

I want to die ASAP

Genuinely feeling like im worthless and disposable

Cant move on

Cant do shit

Im just stuck

Please, any advice im in need of help