u/Glittering-Opinion86 — reddlx

I went on a date with a guy in January. Only time I’ve ever felt at peace with who I am. Since then my mental health has just been declining. I’ve never had sex, with a guy or girl. But I was SA’d when I was 11 by a guy my age. And I just feel like I’m slipping. I feel disgusting when I envisage myself with a guy. I can’t imagine myself being with a girl (although I’ve tried). But because of the SA it also terrifies me of ever being with a guy. It feels like I’m in a bit of a catch 22

I genuinely just hate myself, I’m really struggling at the moment. I’m in therapy but I don’t feel like I’m making much progress.

Sorry, drunk if nothing makes sense.