u/Glittering-Elk4889

This is my first post in this group so I really hope people don’t suck in here. My husband is an alcoholic. He has been a very high functioning alcoholic for many years. He was diagnosed with cirrhosis a couple of years ago and has essentially decided to ignore it. I see it progressing but he can’t. He will go for a few days, or a week without drinking but inevitably he goes back to it. I don’t buy it for him. He was kind enough not to ask for a long time, but eventually started gas lighting me into buying it again. I told myself at least I could control how much he gets. Lol. I’m sure you know I was wrong about that. Door dash is a problem. So my husband is killing himself and I can’t make him stop. How do I cope, knowing I might go home and find him dead? Do I just get more cameras in my house? Sitting at my desk crying isn’t doing any good so far.