u/Glass_Nectarine_7585

I’ve been clean for a long time now but lately, I've been hit with this intense, wild urge to start again cutting myself. I really miss the feeling and I want to experience it once more. Its strange because I want it so badly, but at the same time, I know I shouldn'tt. Im in the hospital right now and its making me feel even worse.I don't know why or what I'm writing this post for. Im just feeling really bad.. I just want to go home.