My dpdr sucess story, and a few tips (6months of dpdr)
Hi my name is Jonas, this is my first time back on the forum for a while, because i remembered how much sucess stories meant to me, i will tell mine. i started using mariuana pretty heavy around march last year. Close to daily usage, i was just enjoying myself and not thinking about counsequenses. In around august i had been smoking almost daily since march, and i had a panic attack because i was getting drafted and had a big stand up comedy show the next weex. This was the first of three panic attacks i would that week. After that week, oh boy i did not know who i am (at the same time of the drafting i was cold turkey quitting weed). After this week everyting started getting bad, my sleep, anxiety that i have never even been close to having and everything was so dark, if something good happend, i could not feel anythin, the same if something bad happend. every feeling i had was just dark and sad. I started to search on google and forums like this one, and found out i probably have dpdr. i used to be a reaaly funny guy, up and coming standup comedien and etc. But i could not be funny if i had no feelings. I started going into loops about how im going to fail my diploma, so i wont have education, then my girl will leave me etc etc. i asked her almost everyday for 2months «Do you still love me» «will you leave me» and this was horrible, it was really taking a toll on our realationship. I was talking with chapgt or other AIs for hoooours to fix this. The last month of my dpdr i was really close to ending it, i thought i could never be my self again, and that all will be dark for the rest of my life. It did not, i am 100% back to where i was if not bette, i still smoke a lil cuz I like it. But now i know that mental health is real, and thats why i came here to tell you. YOU CAN AND WILL COME BACK TO YOURSELF. My biggest tip is to keep going, if you start isolation from friends and family and etc you will get worse. You will learn your mind that anxiety is the leader, and not you. You have to keep challeningen to do what your old self would do, start in baby steps. Go to the grocery store alone, and keep building. For me i was always the most social guy, knew everyone from scholl and in my town, but while under dpdr i barley felt like i knew those people. Because how can you know others if you dont know your self. PS me and my girl is still together, and if you really love your partner help them trough this period. if they need space, give it to them, but not top much. They still have to se people, and not just sit in there room.