I don't have anyone in my life who isn't family and it's making me feel more like shit then I already do.
I'm looking for someone who's in the same boat as I am (conventionally unattractive). Preferably socially awkward too as I'll feel uncomfortable talking to anyone who's had partners and partied lmao.
I'll be 20 this year so I'm looking for someone who's my age + (20 - 40 s) I'm desperate. dead-ass.
I'm not just unattractive but straight up uncomfortable to look at. I haven't felt this frustrated with myself ever and I don't know how to deal with it.
Life's not all about looks but it is if it's causing you extreme discomfort and anxiety doing anything around anyone. I can't escape the level of self hatred I feel being anywhere other than home.
Even the thought of ending myself and the pictures that'll be used to show who I was upsets me. How I will look after death to anyone who's having to deal with my body is a headache. I want to disappear immediately.
Everyone on r/ugly who's shown themselves to me id gladly switch bodies with in a heartbeat. that's not invalidating anyone's feelings as it's because there isn't anyone I can imagine judging on appearance alone so if I'm someone else I'll have a little more empathy and self love.