Was I love bombed?
For context, we are both early 20s and in college, long distance.
Anyways, I met this guy on a dating app. At the moment dating apps suck for me. I never meet anyone I like and if I do, they don't want anything serious. Until, I met him. He was different. I finally met someone I could have a dynamic conversation with and he was attractive to me. For two weeks we chatted on the app. He mentioned something about having kids with me. I assumed he was joking. Since he was the only person I found a connection with I decided to go off the app with him and talk on Instagram. He said he deleted the dating app because I was the only one he was interested in and that he "never held a conversation this long with someone from there". We started talking every day for long periods of time. Sometimes when I was out doing other things he would get irritated I wasn't responding to him. I didn't think anything of it, I thought he just wanted to get to know me better.
So then we started calling on the phone. We were opening up to each other about our families, interests, previous relationships, etc, and I thought we were really going to be together. Around week 3 or 4 I brought up whether he saw himself having kids in the future. I didn't want kids because of health reasons. It was a lot for me to even talk about this but I felt safe and he seemed to receive what I said well. He kept assuring me that it was okay and important that we talked about this. Then we talked about other things and it was going well until... his parent called him and I waited on the phone for him to get back. His tone changed. He said he couldn't talk anymore. Naturally I internalized that the next day. After this he started studying more for exams so I tried not to think it was all about me. We started talking less and less and he didn't message me in the morning as much. Whenever we talked it was just about school and him begging me to "save him" because he felt crushed.
I started to feel really weird and anxious. Even when exams were over. Previously he would text me a lot. Then it felt like I was always waiting for him to talk to me, not wanting to bother him. Because when I would text him he would take forever to reply. The only way to get him to not do that is if he offered to call. I noticed a lot of our conversations about him and his life. Still I missed talking to him so one day he told me he passed the test and I congratulated him. His texts were spaced out but nothing major. Then I asked him when he wanted to call again, he seemed responsive and energetic. He asked if I wanted to fall asleep on the phone. Before I was apprehensive but I felt like well this is the best I might get for a while. (I hate that I was acting like this)
So he takes a shower, I brush my teeth. I'm laying down waiting... wondering if he fell asleep cause he's done that before. Then he texts me saying he just takes long showers. Whatever, we call and he is VERY talkative. I was super tired but I entertained it for a little. Then it just got weird. He started laughing a lot at stupid things, making annoying jokes, getting loud, talking over me when I told him to chill. I told him if he doesn't stop I'd hang up (regrettably, I didn't). He started being like "I'm sorry....okay let me talk about something else". Then he started talking about random disturbing news stories. I was like why are you talking about this? I only wanna think about good things. Then he kept apologizing. I felt off about it. He fell asleep so I turned on. The TV and tried to fall asleep too. This was the first time I felt lonely when talking to him.
When we woke up we talked about other stuff and he told me he severely regretted last night and that he hated that I saw him like that. He apologized a lot. We talked about our relationships and expectations, some past stuff some new stuff. He made a comment I didn't like. Even though our conversation ended on good terms I still felt kinda weird about him. When I expressed this concern he just said he was sorry and I said I accepted. This made me feel...empty? Like idk there was a certain callousness. That didn't feel specifically malicious but just like "I don't care". Now I feel like he may not be the one for me. And I care less about him than I did before.
TLDR; I feel like I'm on an emotional roller-coaster. It started off good and intense then he started to pull away. It made me anxious.