A couple of months ago, I was really close with this one friend. We used to spend time together and talk almost everyday. Now, they’ve moved onto other friends and I feel left behind.
For context, this person used to communicate with me a lot and initiate a lot of the conversation over text and in person. Over time, I started to take longer and longer to respond to her as my class schedule got busier. I also didn’t feel compelled to answer her messages right away, but I don’t know why. I loved being her friend and she is one of the most thoughtful people I know. I didn’t not want to text her, but something in me didn’t respond to her texts. I sent a long winded text to her explaining that I wasn’t in the right headspace and apologized for being a bad communicator. They seemed really confused and unsure as to why I was worrying so much about it, which makes me wonder if it was all in my head and I was the only one who felt it was making in our relationship not as close.
I’m left grappling with my emotions, knowing that we’ll never go back to the way it was before. I feel really envious when I see them with other people, wishing we could talk more often or have deep talks. But we haven’t in weeks (when we used to have them almost every day), and I’m wondering what I should do? Is cutting off the friendship a good idea? I don’t want to be left thinking about all the good times we had and always thinking about it when I’m around them. What should I do?