u/Glad_Mastodon_5503

I’m having a really rough time rn and I just need some outsider opinions. My and my fiancé have been together for 3.5 years, engaged for about 7 months. I just recently got my birth control removed and ever since then everything that has been done in the past is floating in my brain and I am starting to rethink this relationship. I made a list of everything that has happened between us and i feel dumb for still thinking about these things even though it all happened well over a year ago. Hes had these 2 female friends well before we’ve known each other. I did used to have a jealousy problem, i will be honest, but what he used to do wouldn’t really help me with those feelings at all. It honestly made things a little worse. Im not gonna use their actual names so we’ll just call them girl 1 & 2. Girl 1 and 2 have been best friends forever. My fiancé liked to workout with girl 2 a lot and I did have a hard time with that because it was new to me (dating a man with close-ish female friends) so I did get a little worked up at times. He didn’t ask girl 1 to workout as much because he said she’d always cancel/ never follow thru with plans.
I keep getting told by him to “get out of my head” but I feel like me feeling weird about these things would be considered a natural response by most women? Idk maybe I am crazy. But here are the things on my mind to this day, these events are in no particular order. I feel like I’m valid to want to leave now, but all of this happened so long ago idk if I should just let it go or let him go? We haven’t had any of these problems in over a year so I’m conflicted.

-Seen “Girl 1’s” boobs on her private snap story called “if he won’t, his friends will”
-Deleted multiples of “Girl 2s” messages so I “wouldn’t get upset”
-used to workout with “Girl 2”without letting me know prior
-wouldn’t let me come out to dinner with him and “girl 2” cause it would be “awkward”
-also never invited to workout with them together to get to know her for the same reason
-never apologizes
-broke up with me cause of how I reacted when I found out he brought them over, along with 2 other guys, while I was out of town even though I thought we had both agreed to no opposite sexes at the house if the other was gone.
-I feel like I got a “shut up ring” because when we first got together he was adamant about not getting married or having kids.

Me and my partner have been together 3.5 years and got engaged a few months ago. When we first got together we were both pretty positive we’d never have kids. But as I’ve gotten a little bit older I realized it’s something I kind of really want. It took him a while to get used to the idea of that and marriage even. I asked him when we’d start having kids, and he started asking his friends when they’d have kids and he wants to plan us getting pregnant around his friends. It has really thrown me off ever since. Ig I just want to know if I’m wrong for feeling this way? On top of the other things he’s done, I feel like this is making me distance myself a bit from him and it kinda makes me sad.