u/Glad-Plankton4933

my bf relapsed after a year of so or being clean but the catch is this time my friend was one of his materials on top of the porn. I genuinely don’t know what to do. I live with this man. he just left for a work trip and won’t be back till the end of the month and he set up therapy for the both of us (that I’ve been asking for, for months) and to do this to me and I find out through screenshots in his Google Photos of him being in discord servers and him AI altering my friend to send into chats with other people. im just so disgusted and I don’t know what to do because I still love him but it hurts so much worse than the porn and he says it’s not an attraction thing and more of a “taboo” topic which is why and it was only this “once” but i genuinely don’t know. he had been clean for a year and had previously went to therapy about it and was talking to me about engagement rings and how he wanted to propose to me this year. how do I even move forward when his porn addiction was already an issue and now I have to worry about my friends ? how does anyone forgive another after this? im genuinely so lost and I don’t know what to do. this is such a lonely feeling.