u/GiveMeAFrickinName

I (44F) have recently realised that how I’ve been living isn’t normal. My eldest son has adhd (diagnosed) and my youngest has Autism (diagnosed) and both times I went through the lengthy process of getting their diagnosis I was questioned as to why I haven’t gone down that path as I have all the markers. I brushed this off as it seemed ridiculous at the time but the older I’m getting, the harder it is to function.
How do people with adhd cope with racing thoughts? Especially at night. I’m coping with the majority of other issues but If I try to lay down to sleep I have about 15 independent thoughts all pushing to the front of my mind at once. I have to sleep propped up with YouTube playing horror stories to block out my thoughts plus most nights I’m drinking night nurse to fall asleep. I then wake up at around 4am daily and, Boom! Racing thoughts.
I feel stupid telling anyone about this because it sounds bizarre. Especially when I think that since moving from busy Glasgow to a small town in England, my mind is on constant overdrive because it’s so quiet here.
I’ve started the lengthy process of getting any diagnosis through the NHS but this can take years.