I was with my ex for 8 years, and we were married for 1. We’ve been broken up for about 3 years now, but I still can't get over the feeling that I'll never have that same kind of connection again.
He was my best friend. We had a million inside jokes, had 3 dogs together (he let me keep them when we split), we loved each others families, he was my favorite person to be around no matter what we were doing.
Then one day, I was completely blindsided. He was cheating, but not in the “typical” way. He was on gay hookup sites behind my back. I was in disbelief and shocked. It would be one thing if it were purely lust but there were messages that indicated he had emotional connection. Things like "good morning, beautiful" and "I love and miss you."
Now he’s married to another woman, and I can’t stop wondering… is he actually different now? Is he just hiding it better? Was I not enough? Was any of it real?
I was obviously hurt, angry, sad, and insecure when it all went down but now I just miss my best friend.
I know what he did was awful. I could never trust him again for betraying me the way he did but it's hard accepting that the future we always talked about will never happen.
Has anyone else dealt with something like this? How do you actually let go when you never got real closure?