Help..? (new btw, and undiagnosed)
So, sometimes i hear things just randomly. nothing bad. But then theres time were I will what my friends and i call it is "fade out of reality," and I will forget were i am, and just forget what i was doing, and just forget everything. Then i start to see this man, and he tells me to do things like to hurt myself or just run away or something. Sometimes I listen because it seems like he reminds me of the times when i was in the hospital, and then he says itll all go all go away if i just do what he says. Id get reminded of the people i hurt. I dont like this in the slightest. I dont want ot tell anyone, my dad gets mad when im not perfect, and my moms neglectful, my therapist would tell my dad or send me away again. Its been going on for a while and i just dont know what to do anymore. Im sick of being controlled. Just one second im just upset, then the next i have no idea what's going on. And its even worse that my friends have to tel me what happend, what i did to myself, because i just dont always remember after it happens.