Hey everyone, I really dont know how to start with this as ive been reading this sub reddit quiet a bit and just feel like im in a completely different situation. I 24 (F) have a partner who is also 24.
My partner just came out to me as being trans. (MtF) Weve been together for over 2 years and I dont know what to think. Weve been long distance for majority of it and still are long distance. Ive also been helping them financially lately as they are going through a rough patch and trying to finish their degree by pursuing school full time. Just last month I spent the whole month with them in their home country yet this conversation didn't happen until days ago... That part hurt a lot.
Just recently we were talking about getting married and applying for the k-1 visa to bring them over as I am currently securing a new job that is really good and will look great on the application. Basically finally planning our lives together and ending the distance.
As fucked up as it sounds; Part of me feels like my dreams died? Like ive only ever imagined myself being with a man, being married to one, having a family, proposal the whole thing. Trust me I love my partner alot weve been through hell and back its just I have no sexual interest or interest at all in woman. I still love them and support them I just told them im terrified of all the changes since I don't know if I will be able to continue in the relationship.
Im currently trying my hardest and staying because as I mentioned above I imagined my whole future with this person. Now I just feel really guilty about my own feelings? Like I at least want to try because I truely love this person but at times I feel kind of lost? Any advice?