u/Gettingusedtoitt — reddlx

I was coming out of serious serious abusive mentally and physically a horrible relationship that was so full of Mind Games and backhanded compliments and Sinister actions towards me while smiling in my face I didn't trust anything I didn't trust anyone I didn't trust my surroundings I couldn't trust that you loved me sincerely I didn't even put it in my mind as a possibility that you could even love me because I was so estranged from my own being at that time you blame me when in fact yes I did these things but you have to understand when I told you I was f***** up I meant I didn't know which path to take I didn't know who I could trust and when you screamed at me at times and did things to me and ran it built so much untrust inside of me that I begin to hate you I'm sorry it was just such a repetition of everything I had already fought with my entire life to get out of and it seemed as if it was going in the same direction with you I had to walk away because when you felt it was okay to play in my face I knew that you didn't love me anymore and I stepped aside and let you live your life